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E-mail Temporary Change

2008-10-07T22:47:00.000-07:00

Dear all,

My primary e-mail address, madfolly92@hotmail.com, is unable to let me reply or read my inbox for sometime already. So I would appreciate all who read this to e-mail me at my secondary e-mail address, pungxiang@yahoo.com.sg.

With thanks,
Chang Xiang

My Blog Lives

2008-05-23T06:53:00.000-07:00

I am finally updating my blog. All of you must be wondering what I have been up to. Well too many things have happened so I would gladly share with you when you ask me.

I WAS PACKING MY ROOM A FEW DAYS AGO AND i CAME ACROSS SOME LETTERS AND POSTCARDS PPL GAVE ME. Some write positive things such as "So stay cute and happy forever" while others say "Happy birthday as*hole!". Now ppl bring each other day from time to time. Even the best fo pals do that too. Having been a student leader, I have learnt to cope with it and the prejudice I face because of who I am. Many ppl judge me to be a si*sy and give me names and laugh at many decisions I make for the fun of it. I am not saying I have never made a wrong decision but how should one react to such a judgmental world?

I have realized that it is important to seek only the acceptance of God in many things we do and be happy with the gifts we are given. For example, lets say you go for a party. You have never drank alcohol your whole life before, but just because you want to fit in you join your friends in this bad habit. Or you know as a Christian not to swear, but because you wanna be cool with your friends you join them too. however there can be adverse consequences like a broken relationship with God. When we start to immerse ourselves in such habits that are temporal, we will find our sense of security skipping from one thing to another never to God. I have experienced trying to fit in so badly, but God thought me to put my security in Him and nothing else. When I place my security in God he reassures me of my significance in the plan He for me and spur me on to live life according to His will through the loving relationship we have. Bottom line this scary world is so much less intimidating when I have such a firm shoulder to lean against for rest and comfort:)

So thank God!

Anyways, I have finally decided to aim for the Law and Management at Temasek Poly. It has a COP of 13 points. So pray that I can get at least 15 ponits to get into the course for my o-levels (because I can minus 2 points from my CCA as I got A1). You can start by praying for my Chines O-levels on the 26th of May- coming Monday. Also, I have been promoted to a Warrant Officer in BB. Yeah! Anyways to end my post here are top 10 singles I have been listening to:

1) Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis
2) No Air by Jordin Sparks ft Chris Brown
3) 4 Minutes by Madonna ft Justin Timberlake
4) Low by Flo Rida ft. T.Pain
5) With You by Chris Brown
6) Bye Bye by Mariah Carrey
7) Don't Stop the Music by Rihanna
8) Mercy by Duffy
9) No One by Alicia Keys
10) Apologize by Timbaland ft OneRepublic

New Year

2008-01-13T05:46:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone. Its 2008! Ok its a bit late to cheer about tat but I only found time to blog now! Anyways let me give you guys a brief look into some things happening in my life and then I will end off sharing how they have brought me closer to the Lord.

Well, I am looking to serve more in service since I am Sec 4 this year and may not be an acolyte next year. So any suggestions please tag. I ask Javier and he suggested me to sing in service but its been a long time since I sang with confidence since my voice broke. The last time I sang confidently was probably when I was in the choir. Anyways, if God calls me why not? I will think more about how I can serve and I am sure SNP will help me because its one of their objectives to help youths who want to serve God. Ok so suggest away everyone.

Also, now a bout school. I am Sec 4 as you guys know. Wow, an important year. I really have to study so please pray for me. So to be more focus I am stepping down soon. In BB, Sir Yew Yi is going to help me look out for a successor so I no longer need to think about it. All I have to do is some organization, work and be ready to help train the newbie before I can be free from my NCO duties. Anyways, I am going to be a Staff Sergent soon. So happy! I am aiming to be more physically build this year, so I am going to train for a large-scale nation wide BB Adventure Competition as my last contribution. Finally, I am working to get the most prestigious BB Award in BB-the Founders Award. I just need good testimonies, a smooth interview and hope that what I have done is enough. Please pray for me that I will excel in all these aspects.

In NE, I am stepping down in April. Bye ex co-we are spiting. I just have to do my part till then- organising events, executing them, leading ect. So pray for me that I will be a sharper leader and also do well. Now about Church, I am enjoying it! The fellowship is great. There is a new cell group this year for the guys only. So cool! I hope it helps pull us closer because sometimes when I talk to them, although we are friends it as if we have nothing in common to continue the conversation-resulting in a awkward silence. I am looking forward to bible studies with Romans. Finally!!!! After all the postponing, it is finally happening!

Ok, so what I have learnt about God through all these is that He is merciful and has blessed me greatly. I know I do not show it all the time, but He did taught me how to lead mostly by example. He gave me lots of chances to perform in BB and let me meet the right people like Peng Siang who shared the Gospel with me or my Officers that were so willing to groom me; especially Sir Tim. And he shows me His mercy each day as I see Christians in my class grow and when we encourage each other you just can tell......... I can say so much about His blessings and mercy but I will just conclude with this. God can just not care and let us die and go to hell and all. So, each time I see God's blessing and Him working around me and as I grow I am just so joyous so you guys must experience for yourselves ok?

Mission Trip Post 3

2007-11-25T07:10:00.000-08:00

This my testimony which I am sharing to the Thais on my mission trip with the help of a translator. It is all about the Vividness of God's Love in My Life and I hope this will encourage all of you to spur on in your walk with the Lord.

Before I started to write this testimony, I prayed to God to help me remember all the times I was touched by His love. God’s love is vast and I am sure of you agree. He sent His son to die for us and not just that he will always forgive us our mistakes not because he is obligated, but out of love. I am going to share about how living by faith appreciating and responding to this undying and great love changed my life.

I came to know God last year from an event at a church in Singapore, Bedok Lutheran Church. When I first heard the gospel, I was fearful because the death portion freaked me out and the person sharing to me who is also on this trip, Peng Siang, seemed persistent. I was afraid of any thing relating to the Christian Faith, as I did not want to get myself in trouble with my parents who despised the faith. However seeing how the love of God is shown universally in all the Christians I met in Church and my CCA; I realised there is really something making this group of people different form the rest. So, I converted and made the decision to follow His will for me. Hence after attending cell group for half-a-year, I got baptised, living each day before that seeing the joy God’s love brought to my life and others, the greatness of His love like how he made us accept and love those that are difficult and even how His love came through like when he promised that He will always help His people which never fails.

Ask anyone, and they will tell you I have changed since my conversion. I still have a long way but I know with God’s love I will be able to an encouragement to others and live by faith. In fact, it is this love that makes me stand here to share you my testimony and this is a priceless possession I will always have to face the future storms life bring. I know all of you have felt His love in your lives too and my advise is to hold on tight and get ready for the ride of your life! Life is like a roller coaster with ups and downs by as long and you hod on to God’s love you will always have that Joy to live on, so simply

love the LORD your God, listen to his voice, and hold fast to him.

Deuteronomy 30:20a

Thank you for your time and I pray that God’s love guards your actions always.

Mission Trip Post 2

2007-11-25T07:01:00.000-08:00

Here is more information on the mission trip I am going for. Below is the Cover of Support Letters I have sent to my supporters; which will give you guys more insights on the trip. This Letter was written by the team leaders and addressed to all recipients of my Team's Support Letters.

Please feel free to approach me if you want to support me financially or simply just pray for the Team and myself that we will achieve all our objectives, be living testimonies to the Thais, spread God's love to all the non-believers and grow in our walk with the Lord.

11 November 2007

Dear XXX,

It brings me great joy to inform you that a team of 12 youths will be going to Thailand for a mission trip this coming December. We are departing from Singapore on 1st Dec and returning on 14th Dec (2 weeks).

It is very exciting to share about the work that God has prepared for us to do. During the first week of the trip, we will go in 2 teams. The first team will be going to a village in Ubon. This is the village where we had been conducting English camps in various secondary schools for the past few years. English camps are where we teach the students simple English through creative lessons and interactive games. At the end of the lessons, we would join them in a time of celebration where we will perform dances, Thai pop and Christian songs and thought-provoking skits to bring the message of the gospel across. We will also be sharing testimonies about how we had experienced the love of God in our lives. The second team will be going to a new village called Mudtahan (situated close to the Laos-Thai border). We thank God that He gives us opportunities to minister not only to the churches and schools in the area but even the youth prison as well! We will be conducting similar programs with them as those we do in English Camps.

During the second week, we will be going to the Capital City, Bangkok. Besides the schools and prison we will be visiting, we also planned for a Christian youth gathering in Ladprao church. This is where we encouraged church youths in the district and theological college students to gather for a time of worship, teaching and praying. We will also be visiting a church Bedok Lutheran Church had built in Sikhiu to help out with the church in an evangelistic event and equip the people for Sunday school ministry.

Our objectives are to encourage our youths to engage themselves in the mission field, and to cultivate godly attitudes and behaviours through the experiences from this trip. We also seek to bring God’s love to the young people in Thailand through the programs and the lessons we have prepare and encourage the Thai Christians to continue to be faithful in their walk and service to God.

We have begun our preparations and would like you to pray for us as we rehearse for our performances and prepare our English lessons. Pray that the Lord will keep us healthy until the end of the trip. Pray also for Rosanna who is the liaison, that there will not be too many changes to the plans we have made. Most importantly pray that all of us will grow deeper in love with God as we serve in Thailand.

We give thanks and glory to God for how the work has advanced in Thailand. We are grateful to be called to do even more. Do support and join us in doing God’s work through praying and supporting us financially. Each member is required to raise S$450 and will be responsible for their airfare. The amount that is raised will be strictly for accommodation, food, transport within Thailand and any other expenses incurred during our 14 days in Thailand. If you are sending a cheque, please make payable to BEDOK LUTHERAN CHURCH and indicate at the back of the cheque "Thailand Youth Mission Trip 07".

Your partnership in the work is greatly appreciated.

Romans Wong & Ang Peng Siang
Team Leaders
Youth Thailand Mission Trip 2007

Mission Trip Posts 1

2007-11-18T08:22:00.000-08:00

Reasons I am going for the trip:

I will be going for this year’s Thailand Youth Mission Trip to experience serving God in a foreign land for the first time. Thank God for the opportunity!

I hope to share God’s love to the people there through conversing, teaching, songs and my testimony. I also hope to have a clearer understanding of mission trips and the calling of a missionary. Most importantly, I seek to grow deeper in my relationship with God through this trip.

I am very excited to share God’s love to the people in Thailand. Despite possible difficulties, I know that the Lord will guide me through and mould me to be a faithful servant. I pray that in difficult situations, I will not lose my patience and complain but remain teachable. I also pray to be less self-centered and be more proactive during this trip. With God’s help, I seek to be a useful instrument for Him and a living testimony to the Thai people rather than being a burden for the team.

Pray that the Lord will lead us in making the right decisions throughout the trip that we may glorify Him. Pray for teamwork, efficiency and spiritual growth in all of us that we take back the valuable lessons from this trip to be stronger in our walk with Christ. Pray for the leaders of the teams as they oversee the programs of the mission trip and lead the team. Pray especially that the Thais will have open hearts so that God’s love can touch them and hopefully many will be saved in Thailand.

I would really appreciate it if you guys could pray for me and the team. Peace of the Lord be with you all and God bless!

Reflection Letter October 2007

2007-11-18T08:09:00.000-08:00

This month, well I have been doing a lot of soul searching. I mean with all the impactful speeches like the one on conscience who I not. I am glad God taught me to do so. I finally realised why I am such a negative person because a part me is not satisfied with God. Although I was going to church and spending time with God consistently, I a part of me was a bitter person. This started way before I was a Christian. I was never felt like part for any gang I was hanging out with. Because people in there outshine in many ways. They are good in sports, instruments, music, have a greats sense of humour, great with computer games ect. Well, I am not. When I became a Christian, I learn things like God gave us our gifts and talents according to His grace and its His best plan for us. However, well each day I live in envy of others. I mean in school I do not have a serious attitude problem I am just different. I am never the spotlight and I just feel sad at times. I am known only to be helping the teachers being a good leader but so many people can do that too. I just feel my qualities do to make people go wow. Before Sec2, I could really sing and that made feel like I had something special others can say wow but now well I suck and the praises just disappear. I felt that I had become very ordinary. I love singing, but I stopped it as a recreation after my voice broke and well all my bitterness, jealousy and unhappiness affected how my relationship with God. My self-consciousness led me not to sing during services and CG meetings. I did not point out mistakes of fellow brothers-in-Christ after sometime in school because I wanted to fit in. The truth is I am starting to follow the culture in school because I want an edge over others so badly that I am not being a living testimony there.
After reflecting, I just feel so guilty because although God has given my talents that I can use to serve Him, I shadow them to try to become someone He did not path me out to be.

“As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received.”
-Ephesians 4:1-

By being so bitter and shadowing the talents God gave me I realised I am further from God and His calling form me. For one, I am not set apart or a living testimony anymore. I am definitely rejecting what God has given me because I am striving at other areas that the world values not God. After much thought, have a talent with things like presentation, photography, planning, budgeting, mentoring , teaching ect is not so bad and I am sure I can use it to glorify God someday. After all, it has got me leadership roles in the School, BB and NE.

From this whole episode I learn to trust God that His plans are the best and that fighting it is no use. I also learn that if a person ever turns bitter, it is hard for God to work through them just like in my case I just totally pushed God out any business to do with my social life. I pray that I will always seek comfort in God and not dwell in self-pity. I have been so focused on the world’ impression of me that at times, God’s word could not come across well. I am sure if I had not been so bitter there would at least be a verse from all my QTs and CGs to help me through this. It is scary that God is actually waiting to come in to help but we shut the door without even facing the fact that we it. My relationship with God has grown through this soul searching and I learn to better put my trust in Him than in the world; because do not want to live a life of unhappiness blaming God.

Reflection Letter September 2007

2007-10-01T22:53:00.001-07:00

“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
-Matthew 6:34-

I am very sure many are familiar with this verse. This month I have returned to being a worrywart. I have once told myself as many leaders of SNP like Ben have told me not to worry and stress. I think I often make myself tense I think too much into things and get too paranoid. Also, I am sure because I am not planning my time well and spending time to feel stressed and worried instead of trusting God and completing all my tasks.

I learnt in Sunday school that I it is God’s plan in an hour we can learn a lot. That is if we trust in Him. This means that in a given time to study we should do our best and it will be all up to God’s plan how we will do in our exams. Of course this applies to everyone. This helped me to relax more and trust more in the Lord. I know that I have to work extra hard to do well in my exams but I will give it my all so I will not let God down. I mean I can glorify God in this area so why not?

I have so far been able to spend time with the Lord each day but I hope during the examination period I will still cling on to this important support in my life.

This month also taught me that sometimes when we disobey God there is no turning back. In Discovery Series, I learnt about Sex and its beauty. When one willingly loses his virginity to someone he does not love loosely, he is forfeiting true love forever. This means even if he repents, he will never have his first time back anymore. This is so much like disobeying God now and going to hell after death where repentance is futile. The sermon on the last Sunday of this month did talk about this and through the illustration of Lazarus the beggar and the rich man. It does not matter what your status is, but you do not follow the ways of your God then you will burn in hell for ETERNITY, just like the rich man, I am sure I do not want to be in the wrong side of God. Which is why I have to constantly trust in his promises and obey his commandments.

Lastly, seeing as how many have left SNP this year from Timothy to Nathelie, I hope that they will still walk right with the Lord and wherever they are, they are still followers of the Lord.
Please pray for them and for me as my exams are already here. Just like what I learnt in bible study with Peng, Love and Harmony in a Christian fellowship is so great and encouraging. Thanks be to God!

Reflection Letter August 2007

2007-10-01T22:50:00.000-07:00

“And do not forget to do good and to share with others, for with such sacrifices God is pleased.”
-Hebrews 13:16-

This past month is smooth sailing as compared to others. I have lesser stressful situations and I have better time management. Well, with lesser frustrating situations, I felt that I should not have pray for so much stuff. That is obviously wrong and thank God that last month I learnt about the importance of prayer from Basic Christian Living lesson and Quiet Time (QT); thus I knew what was I should do. We should pray always.

“Pray continually.”
-1 Thessalonian 5:17-

I still remember the verse. So cool! I am usually complacent about it and so I am so happy. Thank God. I need to put in more effort in doing so as I tend to forget verses as I have learnt. I get the gist of the verse but I simply do not know where it is located in the bible. The above verse is from one of my QT sessions. The word sacrifice in the verse holds much meaning. It is the main gist of the verse and two examples of sacrifice for God are doing good and sharing with others.

I have personally sacrificed time in my life to study and spend time with God daily. I even thought of ways to enrich these experiences by having spent Sundays now reflecting on how I have applied the lessons learn during QT of the week. I have also taken time out to write out things I want to pray for throughout the day and in the night I pray for them before I sleep. In the past, I will just remember what I want to pray for and pray for those items in QT and before I sleep. I still pray during QT, but after in the night when I pray for items in the list; I realised that I have more things to pray for when I list out items to pray for. This is because when listing, I have discovered more possibilities of things to pray for. It seems even in a somewhat smooth sailing month I still have a lot of stuff to depend and thank God for. I mean who prays without thanking God.

Also, of course I did not forget to apply doing good in my life as the verse suggests. Even when your month seems to be great, there are still other people who need help and need God. I have helped Leon, a Christian in my class, by always reminding him to Christ-like always. He has a tendency to ignore things around him and just burst out if he is mad. This makes going out with him during his mood swing embarrassing. Thus, I explain things to Him as a friend and as a Christian and I am currently pointing signs of his mistake to him. So this is a way I have shown love to a fellow child of God in my life and done good in my life.

The last part of the verse talks about share with others. Share with others what? Obviously our purpose as Christians-that is to share about the Gospel. Did you actually ever observe the different personalities on just a single bus ride? It is amazing how God teaches one with things and situations in his daily lifestyle. A boring or what may be an insignificant way of life like taking a bus may actually be a great time to reflect about God and dwell in thoughts about God and His word. I mean instead of daydreaming, it is actually a great time to strengthen one’s relationship with the Lord. Amazing but true. When I reflect about how to make my life more Christ-like I observe that people on my bus ride daily are often far from it. For example, there was this woman who kept scolding the bus driver vulgarities in dialect at the bus driver on one of my bus rides. How wrong is that? To some eating on the bus is fine, but it is actually illegal. I saw students eating on the bus although they were not allowed to and could be fined. Just looking at how impulsive, disorganised and God needing those people are I felt than more importance about spreading the Gospel in my life. I need to put in more zeal to get friends to come for events not for the fun of it but most importantly, to eventually spread the Gospel to them. I am currently trying to spread to my friend pf 5 years, Jack Yang. He seems a little distant but I will try my best. So pray for him and for me that I may be able to sacrifice trust and obey God always.

“Now all has been heard; here is the conclusion of the matter: Fear God and keep his commandments, for this is the whole duty of man.”
-Ecclesiastes 12:13-

My Blog-Lives

2007-09-07T11:03:00.000-07:00

Hey! This has been a long time since I have last updated my blog. I know how dead the atmosphere is so on this day of reivival....I have decided to declare that I have a new laptop! Whoo...hooo! Anyways, some of u may know the brand and all but I just do not feel like disclosing it here. PS: My friend Yi Cheng and Priscilla, i mean Christopher, helped me make this decision. Thank God, Chris never visits my blog much. Why do u ppl not tag me! YC the last time u tagged was like last year.

Anyways, my post is not some brainless one where I gossip or complain about life. Well life is unfair, deal with it, I actually taught that to my Juniors. Can u guys believe how I have become more erm wats the word.......oh yes, its MATURE! So happy. I mean deep in my heart I always knew this fact but I just did not embrace it cos complaining is so much more fun. (Oh cos now I dun think like tat) ok I have to get right on the topic. My post is to share with the readers that have faithfully flooded messages in my tagboard about how deep in the ground my blog is being buried. In case u dun noe Ranald, Peng's blogging days are not over. He just has a new link. Opps....I have not relink him. Ok let me relink him then u all of u can check it out if u have not-which I doubt so but oh well.

Tonight I went to Peng's chalet at downtown east. Oh no, I have tuition and I have to sleep soon. Ok here is the whole incident in brief. I was in fear of something. I ask Amy and Peng about it. They ask me what I know about the incident. I told them a what a leader told me. They wanted to know if I read about this and check it out in the bible. Now here comes the important part.

Others are not God. Your sense of assurance should come from God's word and not from wat ppl say. I still fear probably cos i have not really check the matter with God's word. Sounds confusing rite? In other words, I just have to constantly check my doubts with God's word and gain my information and assurance from there. I am not saying that u cannot look for the leaders ect for advice but just check against the bible to all references and knowldge aquired. PS: Remember Peng's lesson u noe the cult leader wan.

Ok I will have to go now, but I will make it a point to update regularlt from now on and I will also elaborate on this post again. To all Christians, this is one of the thougths that keeps me going each day to love God and destest sin: the thought that the end times are near and that we will not know when the Sun of God is returining. Where is your stand on ur eternal resisdence and where does ur heart lie?

School Reopens

2007-06-26T07:45:00.001-07:00

School has just reopened. I am not very free now so i shall make this post snapy. First, I would my fellow siblings in Christ to pray for these items:

1) Pray that I will have good time mangement.
2) Pray that I will say focused in school and on sharing the Gospel.
3) Pray that I will constantly trust and obey God-always also being a positive person and living
testimony to others.
4)Pray that I will complete all my homework on time and work hard.
5)Pray for good fellowship with the Christians in my class always.

TV Shows

2007-06-16T04:10:00.000-07:00

Hey all,

Here are just some television shows that you guys can catch because they rock. So my top 10 list of rocking shows are:

1)Charmed
2)Friends
3)The OC (Season 3 on Channel 5 every Sat at 3am)
4)Grey's Anatomy
5)The Ghost Whisperer(Season2 on Channel 5 every Fri at 10pm)
6)House
7)One Tree Hill
8)Ugly Betty(Season 1 on Channel 5 every Sun at 10pm)
9)Las Vegas
10)Scrubs

Feel free to catch them on cable channels like Star World or Mediacorp Channel 5.

An Update-Yeah!

2007-05-07T05:09:00.000-07:00

Hey its me blogging again.

Man, I am having like Science(Chemistry) and Additional Mathematics paper tommorrow. I am pretty concerned about how I will fare. I hope I will do well. So all reading this posts please pray that I can focus and study. Also u realise a part of my Reflection Letter is extracted from a posts on my blog because I wanted to write about the same topic and since I posted about here; I might as well cut and paste. Ok, I am going to study Chemical Formulas ect now!

God bless all, and all the bests to all with taking the mid-years.

Reflection Letter April 2007

2007-05-06T07:46:00.000-07:00

Another month has just past. We are almost half-way through the year. April was what I would call a very stressful month. Thank goodness……..I was not alone.

Things at home well were not exactly great. I am still very hot-tempered and quarrel with my family members often. There was once I actually ran away from home, without caring about anything-God, my family or even what is happening in my life. I was just super depressed and dwelling in my own issues like my dad not caring about me anymore and stuff that I ran away. Fortunately, Javier taught me to think in a calm manner again when I called him to seek advice. Wrong person in a sense, as a leader-being older and more knowledgeable in the word would be able to help me more. Fast-forwarding, I finally was with my mum and grandma. They wanted me to go home, but I just could not take it anymore and I slept at Roman’s place that night. I just cannot imagine that at that time I could just leave them broken there. My mum even said she is always here for me but yet I chose to leave. I could not really leave with myself after that. Through this incident, I did not reflect Christ-likeness at all. I just wanted to satisfy my own desires of being carefree that I blocked God out. Run now, my family is still in a very tense situation, but I have learned to change and move on instead of complaining. I try my best to control my temper and some changes are visible to my mum. Yeah! I try to not vent my stress and frustrations at home and I am currently working to patch up the relationships I tore apart. Even when they criticize about Christians and scold vulgarities at God, I forgive and ignore. I know it is not easy, but Jesus was here to be trampled by men such as us, and I know he shares my pain. With this, it pushes me on.

1) Pray that I will be able to patch with my Dad, sister and grandfather-being a living testimony at home.

Now, about school. I just cannot stop gossiping! I am always criticizing the people I dislike, teachers included, behind their backs to others. I know it is wrong which is why I am trying my best to change. Also, I am learning to be less sensitive. I am finally able to slowly differentiate between a criticism and a joke. With this, my social circle has widened and people are more attracted to me. Thank God! This way, I will have a chance to get closer to them and reach out! Yeah! I have also learned to be more conscious about the way I carry myself and act. I am able to resist most temptations that are not showing I am Christ-like. I do not know if it is because I am close to the Christians in my class and we encourage each other alone or that I am actually growing to be a special individual for God because I finally see my purpose here. To me, Earth is just a stopover for something greater-heaven and eternal life. In Basic Christian Living, I learnt that Eternal Life is a good relationship with God forever. Yes so on earth, we would have to constantly grow in our relationship with God and also spread his word so more can share that happiness we receive from this wonderful relationship. This is why I am spreading the gospel to as many people as I can. Now, I am no longer feeling shy to share what I have experienced to my friends like Wei Peng, Leslie ect. I know that the Gospel moulds the story of my life as I know how I should live from life from the point where Christ has fixed the bridge connecting me to God. When I share the Gospel, I feel the strong feeling of happiness. We as Christians when sharing the Gospel is not just to led someone know the good news, but it should remind us why we made the choice in the beginning too and reflect how we appreciated Christ death and resurrection and have changed to be a different person-a man of God. However, I am still mean and sarcastic to people I dislike but I am finally able to stop. I learned to love them as God as loved me because if we fear them, we will not be able to touch them. I am also beginning to slack and not study anymore. Watching a lot of TV and using a lot of the computer-neglecting homework and tests. I failed for some subjects thanks to this. So I am going to work out a timetable to be disciplined.

2) Pray that I will be a living testimony in class.
3) Do not gossip anymore.
4) Be nice to everyone even those I dislike.
5) Be disciplined in my studies.

During Cell Group, we are learning to have the right relationship with Christ. Now, this is a mutual relationship. One thing I learned is that we cannot grow based on our past experiences with God, but my keep growing. Due to the thought that I may struggle with a certain sin, I found it hard to come to God. Thus, sometimes I skipped Quiet Time. I realized that my life went a little off-course when I did that and thus I am starting it again. The Combined Cell Group session based on the sermon about the stepping on the picture of Christ, got me thinking. There was this situation that I had to reflect. If a man were to come up to me with a gun during school hours, and he said that if I answered that I had faith in Christ; he would kill me and everyone else. Well, this decision was not hard for me honestly. I knew my answer all along- I would say yes. So what if he kills me, I will just enjoy life in heaven earlier. And I trust God to save the people, and their lives are indeed not in my hands although my answer would implicate them. I would rather trust God would have the best plan for them and cling on to faith. I rather not send the picture that my relationship with Christ means nothing. I mean even if I said no and the people get to live, they might not become Christians; anyway that is also not in my power to decide. All I can do that is right in the situation is to hold on to faith, and what comes after that: whether the person shoots me and everyone is God’s best plan. I asked this question to the Christians in my class and their responses is yes. I am glad that I am having fellowship with people that right with God too. Leading Songs in CG this month, got me to realized how am suppose to be the follower and that I really want God to be my world and my leader. I often find it hard to look for directions in this crazy world, but thanks to him I only know that the direction I can follow and trust in His. I feel so blessed near him. Thinking about his death this Easter, I cried. I felt truly how unworthy we are and I just want to be at my best but I know my sinful nature will always knock at my door. But I know a long as I breathe, I will seek Him, the beginning and the end. Eirene’s lesson taught me to think whether my relationship with God-whether it is one way or both ways? My answer is it is one-way at times. Because sometimes I just block him out and forget His sovereignty over the situation. But at times it is two-way when I dun block him out. But I guess the fact that I can chose to disobey the Holy Spirit as and when I want to the relationship is most likely one-way. But I will not want to stay this way as God is my world. I just have to bear in mind that God is my only support and only he truly understand and feels what I feel. I appreciate all he ahs done for me. In Sunday school, I learn the reasons to resist sin and how God can save us from our sins. Whoa, that is a point I have to remember always. Whenever I remember this, I have the will to resist temptations. I mean God is definitely stringer than the Devil. I also want to patch up my relationship with Nathelie. I know many people in SNP would find this quite impossible; but I have to do it because if I cannot even love a fellow sister-in-Christ, how can I love non-Christians. I will need some advice on this so I guess I will approach the leaders. I am also beginning to see the results of my Gospel Sharing efforts; Leslie my schoolmate has agreed to come to church to know more. So cool lor! Although this is God’s plan, but I am happy that I able to his instrument in His plans for Leslie.

6) Pray that I will trust and listen to God more and not block Him out as and when I want to. Pray that this relationship is two-way.
7) Pray that I will patch up my relationship with Nathelie.

Worry. Man I often have this. I know having God, He will be looking over my issues providing me comfort, advice and ways out. However, that often slips my mind. But, he truly comforts me always through people like SNP members and His word. This is why I am just going to trust and obey His plans, because I love Him and I do not want to hurt Him by carrying on this way. I also want to learn to no question Him at times, because who am I to do so. I am already chosen among so many to be saved yet I question His plans. Are they not for the best when I already have a chance to go to heaven? This is why I am going to clear out these thoughts and just trust-yeah! I am also able to advice others this month and I realized that my advices have changed when I knew more about God. I am so happy that I am growing somehow. Thank God-because each time when I feel I am stagnant; I have a fear that does not come because God might punish me or what, but what I learn in Romans during Sunday school-that God will just one day leave me to a deprived mind. That would probably be that day I totally depend on myself-which is why I will cling on to God. For he has shown me His best plan for me like when I chose to stay in Damai. I remember SNP members, like Romans, telling me that if I chose not to switch school this year, I have to trust its God's best plan for me even though I cannot see it now.

Now, I am slowly seeing the light. Serving as a school leader and ambassador to National Education has shown me some light to the beauty of Singapore. From this, I began to learn to see the beauty of this world in the eyes of the Lord. Imperfect as it is, the original motive behind every creation we see is actually pure and wonderful. Through the many happenings in Boys' Brigade and National Education Ambassadors, I learned how to project myself better and speak with even more confidence. I think coming out of my shell, and my fear of talking to others that I just met at times, has allowed me to spread the Gospel more efficiently. I have since spread the Gospel to my friends without fear. I thank God that Leon-my study mate and Mildred-my good friend sitting next to me in class, are helping me spread the word of God in class too. We all learn to correct one another when we are wrong and encourage us along. Being a living testimony in school was hard for me but I thank God for placing fellow Christians in my class and making them my bests of friends. Both Leon and Mildred often help me with my studies and share their various experiences with God. I feel his presence is near in my class. Another girl sitting next to me in class, Rebecca is bad in English and me and Mildred have been helping her along. I think she might eventually see Christ through how we handle ourselves. Behind the three of us are Fatin, Koon Hiang and Fairul. In the beginning of the year, Fairul and i did not talk much, now we grew closer as the six of us often talk and ask each other questions. When our teachers or absent or during free period, we would often play games together. Fatin was absent sometime from school, and needed help to catch up with her homework. Thank God I managed to be of help and she is just so sweet. On the day of our exam, she told Koon Hiang, Fairul and me that she preferred the sitting arrangement before the exams as we could sit together! How sweet! Plus, Koon Hiang use to dislike me when were classmates last year, thank God it is better this year. Anyway, I have grew close to friends like Leslie, from the class next door who shows interest to know God more! Yeah! Also, I found out I love the subs I am taking now, I guess it’s a matter whether u want to complain, or learn to live with it. God's plan-then u might like it!

I also want to thank God for my teachers who are pushing my limits each day with more duties, homework and planning of events! Yes, I am beginning to see why Damai is God's best plan for me.
I am feeling that I am more honest and conscious of my relationship with God in my life, so that is why I can write this reflection letter. Lengthy as this reflection letter is, I am just thanking God for this new life-God bless to all who reads this and my life experiences be of help to help you make the right choice of following God whole-heartedly.

God's Best Plan

2007-05-01T04:00:00.000-07:00

I remeber SNP memebers, like Romans, telling me that if I chose not to switch school this year, I have to trust its God's best plan for me even though I cannot see it now.

Now, I am slowly seeing the light. Serving as as a school leader and ambassador to National Education has shown me some light to the beauty of Singapore. From this, I began to laern to see the beauty of this world in the eys of the Lord. Imperfect as it is, the original motive behind every creation we see is actually pure and wonderful. Through the many happenings in Boys' Brigade and National Education Ambassadors, I learned how to project myself better and speak with even more confidence. I think coming out of my shell, and my fear of talking to others In just met at times, has allowed me to spread the Gospel more efficiently. I have since spread teh Gospel to my friends without fear. I thank God that Leon-my study mate and Mildred-my good friend sitting next to me in class, are helping me spread the word of God in class too. We all learn to correct one another when we are wrong and encourage us along. Being a living testimony in school was hard for me but I thank God for placing fellow Christians in my class and making them my bests of friends. Both Leon and Mildred ofen help me with my studies and share their various experiences with God. I feel his presence is near in my class. Anothe girl sitting next to me in class, Rebecca is bad in English and me and Mildred have been helping her along. I think she might eventually see Christ through how we handle ourselves. Behind the three of us are Fatin, Koon Hiang and Fairul. In the beginning of the year, Fairul and i did not talk much, now we grew closer as the six of us often talk and ask each other questions. When our teachers or absent or during free period, we would often play games together. Fatin was absent sometime from school, and needed help to catch up with her homework. Thank God I managed to be of help and she is just so sweet. On the day of our exam, she told Koon Hiang, Fairul and me that she prefferred the sitting arrangement before the exmas as we could sit together! How sweet! Plus, Koon Hiang use to dilike me when were clssmates last year, thank God it is better tis year. Anyway, I have grew close to frineds liek Leslie, from the class next door who shows interest to know God more! Yeah! Also, I found out I love the subs I am taking now, I guess its a matter whether u want to complain, or learn to live with it. God's plan-then u might like it!

I also want to thank God for my teachers who are pushing my limits each day with more duties, homworks and planning of events! Yes, I am beginning to see why Damai is God's best plan for me.

Updating Of Posts

2007-04-30T11:30:00.000-07:00

I will update again when the exams end. So, please be paitent and wait! Meanwhile, you guys can drop encouraging messages at my tagboard to cheer me on as I go through thid period. God bless all of us!

Prayer Request

2007-04-23T05:22:00.000-07:00

Pray that I will take time to think about the sin I may be struggling with, and make out if I am really struggling with the sin and change! Pray for wisdom for Ben, myself and all who tries to help me!

New Posts

2007-04-22T04:38:00.000-07:00

About my previous posts, everything that Satan does is to lead us away from God, even these spirits and ecounters. I just wanna find out about these stories cos they are interesting; but guess I should not have let it get into my Head. Sorry Lord, and thank you wake up your idea!

Sprits? Real or a hallucination?

2007-04-21T01:12:00.000-07:00

Well an interesting issue to discuss would be do ghosts really exists? Huh an age old question that puzzles many today. So wat is it? Satan and fallen angels at work or life after death?

Well according to Christians from my Church and the bible, it is the work of Satan and fallen angels. If so then again, how come most experiences involve personal memebers of the family and apparations appear in their likeness? Tricks people, tricks to get you to belive that life after death can exist on earth. Well, I had a close encounter with spirits like 2.

Gets me to start wondering about the paranormal. Are supernatural forces at work? Like at siad its Satan at work. But even so, I am still pursueing the motive in Satan's doing? Is he trying to lead us away from God as always? Well, I am going to find out.

SPY OO3 2007

2007-04-16T04:59:00.000-07:00

After spending clsoe to a year with the people, I just wanted to make a posts abut them! Indeed, they are a wonderful bunch of people to spend my staurdays with.............however something that I remember always is that amist all thsi fun, the focus is still God so lets us all continute to grow as God's people!

-Ansell

He was in confirmation with me, and i currently attending BCL with me. He seems quiet but is a nice person overall and a good listener although it would not hurt for him to be more socialable.

-Amy
One of our CG leaders she portrays herself to be caring and responsible for the ministry and the CG. She teaches us during CG to her best and often is concern for all her members. She never fails to tell us off when we have done wrong and is an overall nice person. She nevr fials to serve in ministry events which is a good example for all to follow!

-Joyclyn

She was also in confirmation with me last year. She seems to have taken it as her respnsibility to take care of the offerings ect. of our CG well which is remarkable. Just like what many call her ,Joy, she has truely brought joy to many of us.

-Andreas
He is simply Hilarious and never fails to crack his jokes. A fun and sporty person to be with, he often does many stunts that results in him getting hurt. He may want to take note of that!

-Ben

Man, he is leaving in June to go study in a University. Well, Ben is a leader than is really passionate to his calling. He does all his lessons well and plans them before hand. He cares to bond with all his members and is approachable to speak to if anyone has an issue. In short, I just want to thank him for all his encouragement and advice. I pray that he will be enjoying the green pastures in Australia with his Family!

-Nathelie

Wow, she has a sharp tongue which is probaly why I often have lots of friction with her. But at the end of the day, we are still friends. She is brings life to each CG session as she is very talkative. She also is one that never skips Church acticvities without valid reasons which is something we can all learn!

-Chang Xiang

Right myself.............well I would not want to comment on myself as it is quite wierld. Just feel free to flood my tagboard about any comments about me.........I hope they are mostly posisitve.

-Eirene

Eirene is a really nice and paitent friend. You can talk to her about your issues and she will sure to give you advice. As an IM this year, she really takes care of all her members especially the girls. She is always a pleasant person to talk and receive advice from. Overall, she is a really nice and friendly person and serves God with all her heart which is visible to all when she teaches, lead songs and makes teh effort to care for her members and call contacts for events!

-Vannessa

A nice person who you can joke with and speak to about your problems. She is sure to comfort and help you! She is regular in Church actvities and never skips any unless she has valid reasons. Spontaneous with anything realated to God she is also a great friend to have. She makes the effort to go all out for God as she tries her best to bring friends to each event, which is admirable!

SIN-IT GETS SO DEEP WHEN LEFT NEGLECTED!

2007-04-12T04:04:00.000-07:00

Okay, there has been this sin-that I dun wish to share that I had been struggling with. I had procrastinated to get it worked out for a very long time. I dunno how to face it and I just want it to STOP. I want to CHANGE for good in that area, although it may not be possible. I will strive to work hard in keeping myself righteous, although it was Christ who allow me to be so in God's eyes as I can never be righteous. Pray that I will not strink again and hide from this matter, because the thing is I noe what the Lord wants of me.........but my worry in this matter is just blocking Him out and putting me First before Him. I need some encouragement from people but I cannot share the exact matter with them. I know that it is God that will truely understand me, but I would appreciate it is you guys would drop a tag at my tagboard to encourage me. Pray for me in this matter also.

SNP

2007-04-01T07:19:00.000-07:00

Cannot wait for Buddy Race. Cannot wait to move PR along. Cannot wait for NE event on Tuesday. Cannot wait ultimately to meet Christ face to face.

I have learnt many things in SNP. Ever since I came in last year. Wow-------------it was a roller coaster ride! Thinking about it gets me so hyper! Yes I came in as Pung Chang Xiang a new believer in confirmation class and I am now Pung Chang Xiang a Christian who thanks God for being able to be a part of family.

I mean, I care for SNP ppl and at first I thought they were weirld but now they are all dear to me.

When I fisrst met Romans in Damai some 3 years ago during BB, I thought he was a bit siao. So when he came to recruit the Sec 1s the following year, I thought oh no man this fat dude is like so overily hyper and crazy his forfit must be like very shiong wan. But he had with him Kenneth, which I had seen a year b4 in BLC. I was the boy who bombared him wit questions about the guitar and I guess he would have not remembered. During Sec 1, the BBQ at BLC allowed me to meet Ben and I could not tell him apart from Kenneth-perhaps thats why they are cousins. Anyway, yes I first met some of them in Sec 1. However, I doubt any of them remebered. Anyways as expected he gave us a crazy forfeit. He made us dress like women. Arrh---utter humiliation. Then introduced life size cluedo. I was thinking like, hiaz just check out the event lor. At the MRT on the Day of the event I saw a thin tan man with a red shirt, I was thinking hah stick figure. I called Romans and he told me and my friend that some dude named Peng would pick us up. Turns out, Peng was the stick figure. Stick like he was nice. At the event I met more SNP ppl and as I played the game...judege many of them. But I of course did not realise that they would be so close to me now. I saw Gwen I really thought that she was like 30 then when I found out she was not....opps! I first saw andreas as the devil cos he mad my group eat garlic. Eww. To add on to that wierld impression, the next time I saw him at the food bash, he took a picture of potter doing buiness in the toilet. I thought...oh my gosh is this guy gay? That's also when I first met Eirene who was nice I guess. I was not in her team but she was one that bothered to say hi. Through all the fun and games....and learning journeys with Peng......faith from God and I finally became a Christian on the Sunday Service for youth day last year. Everthing to me was a nice song.

Here are the impressions of the people I am having now:

1)Romas: Funny guy yet he is always there 4 me
2)Peng: Thin, serious yet a he is always ready to help his fellow christains
3)Kenneth: A very nice personality and caring
4)Eirene: Can tok to and is able to give advice
5)Andreas: Still doing stupid things, but is overall a great guy
and the list goes on

the point is they are all my siblings in Christ and with them and all the programs in SNP I have grown and well thank God!

My Results

2007-03-29T00:58:00.000-07:00

Hi all,

I got back my termly report book today. My CA results were really horrible. I did not take A-maths test 1 cos I was absent and the teacher had no time for me to retest in the first term. Some tests I studied and some I did not. I was always absent in Term 1 because I was alway ic nd all. When I went back, I had so many subjects to catch up and tests to take that I just did not study for most of them! I totally regret it..............arhh..................so frustrated; sad and disappointed!

Here is the tableof my results. Look at my Sec 2 scores and you all will know how much I dropped in all my subs!

Subjects Test 1 Test 2 Test 3 Test 4 Percentage Grade
English Language 70 60 VR VR 65 B3
Chinese 70 62 50 VR 60.7 B4
Additional Mathematics VR 38 VR VR 38 F9
Mathematics 30 70 28 VR 42.7 E8
Science
(Physics, Chemistry) 36 82 66 64 62 B4
Combined Humanities
(Social Studies, History Elective) 72 62 VR VR 67 B3
Geography
(Revised) 28 41.4 VR VR 34.7 F9

Secondary Two End-of-Year Results
Subjects 2nd Cont. Assess't 2nd Sem. Assess't 2nd Comb. Mark Overall Mark Grade
English Language 70.8 68.8 69.3 67 B3
Chinese 65.9 58.1 60.1 61 B4
Mathematics 57 56 56.3 58 C5
Science 77.8 78 77.9 77 A1
History
(Revised) 75.6 73.1 73.7 78 A1
Geography
(Revised) 79.4 82.5 81.7 82 A1

School Holidays March 2007 First Half

2007-03-18T03:06:00.000-07:00

Yey, I am blogging again.
This holiday was a blast. I had a fun time preparing for the event O-Pey-Soom which occurred on Thursday(15/3/07) and Friday(16/3/07). On Monday, I went down to church and learnt how to play Castle Keep-an American Board Game from Gamewright; I also lent my laptop to Nathelie to complete our the design for our CG's.............I think bookmarks lar. Too bad she had to cycle home early. S having written out the fronts she wanted and done out the design; I completed the job for her when I reached home and eventually attached it to an e-mail addressed to SPY 003 leaders.
Tuesday, was a boring day. I woke up late and got my school remedial timings mixed up. So, I decided to help out at church instead. Becky, Shermaine, Johnathan-Beck's brother and me did up the rooms for the hairstyling stations ect. The challenge came when we needed to move the pills (if this is even how it is spelled) in the Chapel. Thank God, because Ranald came to help too. So it was three guys moving the pills and I did it with the help of some roller thingys. I do not know what they are called. After moving..................all of us remembered there was Lent Meditation the next day and they were using the chapel. Now, where were the people sit?
So on Wed, we moved ten pills back for the service and hanged around to do some more preparation work and then bond by slacking in the youth room. Peng, Aik, Minoru, Andreas, Nathelie, Ranald also played dodge ball to help Aik prepare himself because he was the trainer for dodge ball tomorrow. It was a fun dry run. In the night, the meditation was what I needed to let myself reflect upon God's word. Th sermon was quite short but it showed me how much Abraham trusted and loved God that he was willing to offer his own son as a burn offering to God. I learnt also that through copying sermon notes it helps one to reflect upon what was being taught and preached; also giving one more things to think, ponder and write about in their reflection letters.

Oh on Wednesday, I found out that I am leading the National Education(NE) Ambassadors in my school. I am in-charge of the NE corner and have my own little comittee. Hiaz............now have to start planning for some events happening there. Nevertheless, I know the Lord is with me through all this.

So this was how the first three days were like for me and I will blog about the following days in my next posts. Whoo...............hoo..................

Reflection Letter February 2007

2007-03-05T02:08:00.000-08:00

But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.
- 1 Peter 2:9 -

This verse is from one of the Quiet Time (QT) Sessions I spent with God, learning his word. Wow, so fast 1 month already and I am 1/6 through the year. So fast! Makes me feel a little fear as like moves faster on. I felt a little scared then with time moving in its own way, not in my control………..then death may come soon. This may sound stupid but I myself and everyone else only has one lifetime of to me, a short period, to work for an eternal happiness with God in heaven. What actually matters now to me is what I do during this period, that I should work to be in the likeness of Christ day by day and please God and not do anything for my own interest because I have only this lifetime to make a difference in my life for the God I love and to inspire others to walk in the light like myself and the other Christians do. The verse teaches me that in this short lifetime, I must spread the Gospel and praise and thank God that he has chosen me for the task; also worshipping him. The verse says that we are the chosen people of God and that we should declare his praises to others such as the non-Christians. Isn’t Christ death on the cross something worthy to be praise and the story of creation worthy to be proclaimed. This encourages and spurs me on the spread the Gospel. The Gospel Package that Spy002 and SPY 003 members need to complete is the perfect task to get me warmed up. Ben says that a Christian responsibility is to spread the Gospel and if unable to do so, it is just funny and something is wrong. I have not been a true living testimony in school, as I often scold vulgarities and yes violent ever since my stress issue. I know this upsets God, but being this freak that God hates makes my friends adore me. I know that Christians are not of the world, and that since we are not of the world people would hate us. Knowing this, my next sentence will not be of one with the word ‘but’ because there is not excuse to cover my mistake. If I want a relationship that is honest with God and is based in trust and obedience, I will have to change my image in school. Then also, from there I can be a true living testimony! THIS WILL LEAD TO AN EASIER WAY AND A MORE CONVINCING WAY TO SPRED THE GOSPEL-MY ULTIMATE OBJECTIVE- AS PEOPLE WILL SEE MY LIFE AND WONDER WHY I AM SUCH A HAPPY, NICE AND POSITIVE PERSON. AND I WILL THEN TELL THEM GOD MAKES ALL THE DIFFERENCE.

Pray for me as I walk along this colourful journey of life each day with God and that I will meet my three objectives this month:

1) Spread the Gospel without shame.
2) Remember to finished my Gospel package
3) Change my behaviour in school

By: Chang Xiang (SPY 003)

My CT Scan Results

2007-02-13T07:15:00.000-08:00

Hi all, before I reveal my CT Scan results, here is something interesting Nathelie sent to me:

ALZHEIMERS' EYE TEST

Count every " F " in the following text:

FINISHED FILES ARE THE RESULT OF YEARS OF SCIENTIFIC STUDY COMBINED WITH THE EXPERIENCE OF YEARS...(SEE BELOW)

HOW MANY ?

WRONG, THERE ARE 6 -- no joke.
READ IT AGAIN !
Really, go Back and Try to find the 6 F's before you scroll down.
The reasoning behind it is below:

The brain cannot process "OF".
Incredible or what? Go back and look again!!
Anyone who counts all 6 "F's" on the first go is a genius.
Three is normal, four is quite rare.

More Brain Stuff . . . From Cambridge University.

olny srmat poelpe can raed tihs. cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny improatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit
pclae.
The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a
porbelm.
Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by
istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot
slpeling was ipmorantt!

Okay now back to the results of my CT Scan. The Docotor suspects that my headaches and signs of vomitings are due to stress; and that the headaches are probably mingrains. She suggested that I see a pycharists, or wateva you spell it, at Changi General Hospital to see if I need medication to help me through my stressful period in life. Hey, thank God it was nothing major.

Going back to school tommorrow so I am sleeping after this posts. Cannot begin to say how I missed school. However, from my absence to seek physical healing; I got in touch with the fun things in life I missed like watching TV. Oh..........I have not watch TV in along time till recently.................wat a relieve it was to watch funny shows, like the channel 8 9pm drama, again! Thank God for that too.

Leading games and songs next CG, haha watch out SPY003 cos we are all in for a fun time. I am also leading songs and have picked out all of them. So prepare to set your spiritual side lose guys and rest upon the Lord and each others support guys. Done up the prayer list for my CG too and I became the Prayer IC. Sent a copy to Romans and he says he will put it up on the church notice board.

Since it Valentime's Day officailly-cos the time I am posting this posts is over 12pm here is a funny joke I ripped from the internet. Laugh out loud all!

Little David comes home from first grade and tells his father that they learned about the history of Valentine's Day. "Since Valentine's Day is for a Christian saint and we're Jewish," he asks, "will God get mad at me for giving someone a valentine?"

David's father thinks a bit, then says "No, I don't think God would get mad. Who do you want to give a valentine to?"

"Osama Bin Laden," David says.

"Why Osama Bin Laden," his father asks in shock.

"Well," David says, "I thought that if a little American Jewish boy could have enough love to give Osama a valentine, he might start to think that maybe we're not all bad, and maybe start loving people a little bit. And if other kids saw what I did and sent valentines to Osama, he'd love everyone a lot. And then he'd start going all over the place to tell everyone how much he loved them and how he didn't hate anyone anymore."

His father's heart swells and he looks at his boy with newfound pride.

"David, that's the most wonderful thing I've ever heard."

"I know," David says, "and once that gets him out in the open, the Marines shoot him."

By: Rate

Better and moving on

2007-01-28T05:20:00.000-08:00

Hi all,

Since my lasts posts things have been moving much smoother than usual. I dropped out of Boy's Brigade Adventure Quests Competition. I noe, it is sad but hey sometimes we have to drop some things so we can move on in life with a healthier lifestyle and mange our other activities better.

Anyway, I am much better liao. Attending counseling as my parents wanted. The counselors says that I am a perfectly fine teenager. I just need to relax and hear myself breathing throughout all my activities and pioritise. So erm yar thats wat I m going to do now.

Through this episode, I learnt to trusts more in the Lord. I really enjoy being his child. Sorry that I have to cut this post short but I have to rest up for my CT Scan tommorrow-some kind of brain scan. Cya!

I need some stress relieve!

2007-01-18T03:19:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, I had the worst headache I ever had all my life. It happened in school and I had to be hospitalised. According to the doctor, it is due to stress. I guess I am really under lots of stress.

Every Monday I have to stay back for BBAQ and PVC Pro-recess time too. Tuesdays I have Chinese Tutuion at home and PVC pro after school and during recess. Wednesday I have to stay back for BBAQ, PVC Project-during recess and after school plus I also have Elementary and Additional Maths Tution at home. Thursday I have to stay back to do BBPR Notice Board. Friday I have to stay back for BBAQ. Saturdays I have to go back to school for NE Ambassador and BBAQ. Then I have CG in the night. Sudays I will have service. Plus everyday have to do homework and admin work of CCA and projects.

My timetable is so pack. Maybe I shold not be leading in school. I cannot even take the pressure of being in NE or BB. Hiaz, I praythe Lord will guide me through. My friends says that I am stupid to do so many projects as he thinks that I am too competitive and that I should drop some. I do not know what to do but I pray that all will turn out fine.

God please help me and show me a way out of my plight!

Hi all, again

2007-01-05T21:35:00.000-08:00

Hi all,

Fist of all, I would like to thank God for helping me through this week. I feel a quite stressed about my subject combie. So many humanities subjects and essay formats. Hiaz, but thanks to the Lord, through prayer I am not longer worrying. I know everything is in his hands so I am sure that in times of need I will not be alone.

I also realised, I have stopped speaking voulgarities already. I have learnt to speak to others in a less scarcastic manner. Although sometimes, I feel that this keeps me left out of some conversations as I no longer speak like some of my friends; I know it does not manner because what manners is my relationship with the Lord. Romans gave me a real practical advice on the last day of 2006 which I think I will always remember. What others do, it does not matter. What matters is my personal relationship with the Lord himself.

My best friend is getting kinda paranoid about things I speak after I became a Christian. He always say like the things you say or the way I act is Christian like which irritates him. He is an anti-Christ; so as to speak. But, I chose to try and spread the Gospel to him through Church events such as TCS and when I am speaking to him. I pray to the Lord for more courage. I feel small at times in a large crowd, but the Lord always give me the courage to be big. I only need to do as he commands and if I am righteous in his eyes, it really does not matter if others like me or not.

Today, at 3pm+ I will be receive my bursary award of $250 from edusave. Haha, although this is not my first year but I get $100 more this time!!!! I am so happy. I thank the Lord for making me this way- his faithful servant, a smart boy and also a joyful boy too. Why? If I leave my worries in His care then, I will always have hope for what's to come and also joy as I know he will always do out the best plan for me!!! I mean he made me and know even my deepest and darkest secretes; not forgetting he died on the cross just to redeem our sins!

Oh one more thing, I am officially a senior Sec 3 boy now, wearing long pants! Hoooooooooooooooooooorayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

BB Adventure Camp

2006-11-30T02:59:00.000-08:00

Dear all, I am back with another posts again. Tomorrow, it is going is going to be the Boy's Brigade Adventure Camp. It ends on Sunday, but I will miss the Church Service. Also, another The Christmas Switch update. Anyway, the camp is supposed to filled with confidence rope courses, solo night walks ect. I do not need another stressful camp to make me physically and mentally tired! Oh no, I will miss Cell Group too, which is on Saturday. Anyway, I heard SNP, my Church's Youth Ministry, is coming for my camp to play some games, and spread God's word!

Got to go now; till next time!

My first posts after a long time!

2006-11-27T05:33:00.000-08:00

Hi all, I have been rather busy lately to posts. Today I went around Blk 112 of Simei to collect used pens for my project. Then my friend came over to play computer games with me.

Anyway, I am in Project Vibrant Colours which requires me to collect unwanted pens and raise funds for a beneficiary of my team's choice. After being rejected by the many associations, we are now going to raise funds for the Autism Association(Singapore) till February 2007.

The unwanted pens will be used to create a collage breaking the Guinness Book of World Records. Every pen I place in the collage means that I will have to earn 50 cents for the Autism Association(Singapore). So it would be nice if you all would kindly give me all your unwanted pens or donate money. Please ask around if your own friends have any too; so that they can pass them to you and you guys can pass it to me. Thanks!

Currently....

2006-11-11T05:16:00.000-08:00

Hi all, my appeal was not successful. I did not get Biology as I wanted, but my VP said that L1R5 would be lower in this combie. So actually, its not that bad. God's will I guess.

Today was the class party. So fun! Bowling, playing the arcade, swimming, playing water game and eating at MacDonald. Haha....

But, key point being, I dropped my wallet!!!! I am really so careless but oh well... guess I have to be more tactful. Today's posts is short cos I am quite busy now...so cya guys!!!

Subject Combination

2006-11-06T22:12:00.000-08:00

Hi all, this is my subject combination!

1) English Language
2) Elementary Mathematics
3) Chinese Language
4) History Elective with Social Studies
5) Additional Mathematics
6) Combine Sciences (Physics/Chemistry)
7) Core Geography

Anyway I appealed for Biology and I hope that I will get it! Haha

My ipod

2006-10-30T03:17:00.000-08:00

I am so scared to tell my parents about my spoilt ipod. I really do noy want to let them know how it is spoilt because they will probaly blame me as:

1) I have lost one before during street E in Marine Parade.
2) The current one that is spoilt is my second one.
3) It will be my third ipod if I were to purchase an new one. One ipod is about $500+ so hiaz, cannot be help!

Here is what happened. During Kenneth's 21st Birthday Party, the guys of SNP were on the rage of throwing one another into the pool and the rest of the story in short is that I was thrown into the pool with my ipod. Today after visiting 3 ipod service centres, the last was open and could service my ipod. Service meaning ipod in asia cannot be serviced in means of repalcing or fixing any copnents other then replacing batteries. According to the Technician that spoke to me, my ipod's battery's circuit board may have gotten a water mark so I will have to hope it will be able to function another 2 weeks or I am going to be screwed!

Change

2006-10-25T01:23:00.000-07:00

Hi all tomorrow is the last day if school and I will be no longer a secondary 2 Kid. I will move on and the class that I had been with for the past two years, 2E3, is splitting to different classes because we are streaming this year. New challenges, and I do not know if I am ready to make friends all over again in a new environment. This saddening thought me to trust in the Lord for what is to come. Before I was a Christian, I told all I felt and thought to my friends and not my mum, because they all seem to relate better to what I was feeling and they would just be a quite pillar of support when I needed any. Some of them are not from my class but I understand why now that my most valuable experience in Damai Secondary until now are my friends. They would not judge me when I tell them my issues but my parents obviously would scream at me the moment something was leading me to the wrong path. However, after God came into my life, He became my twenty-four hour listenener and he never ever abandoned me when I needed Him. I told him when I would never tell anyone in the world and seek for Him everyday through reflections. I have grown a lot since June 2006 and I am still.
1) I have learned to control my temper. I used to find faults in almost everything that my mum says and quarrels would break out, but I soon decided to pause and choose the choice of listening. I slowly realised how much my mum loved every detail of me and my ife. She will always wait for me to go back to the right paths if I sidetrack and I just love her so much......
2) I learnt to control my tongue. You all know how scarcastic and rude I am at times and how I ask too many silly questions but now I have changed to mind my words and the questions I ask.
3) With awareness of these, I changed into a more paitient person. I often complain at the slightest deatail, I still do but lesser, but I am starting to change into a more patent and less complacent person by enduring and perservering which God taught me.
4) I used to be one of the bad boys who go round smacking others and laughing at them ect if I feel they are inferior to me cause I am always topping in my studies. I have changed as God granted mercy and brought me to see the light that we are all the same and we all seen. I paid more attention to my friend's feelings and my social circle grew larger.
5) I also learnt to respect the opposite gender, I treat girls and guys the same way in the past but now I am more sensitive, giving others more respect.
6) I grew less offensive and I learnt to take things in a positive stride. People do not seem to critisizing me anymore as I can find ways to change and be positive.
7) I learnt to trust more. With God, I took the chance offered to me and explored it. I realised that if I can trust in the Lord, why can't I do the same with others rite? So I allowed more friends and family to catch me when I am falling and felt a warm feeling of love and sincrity from people around me. I felt a strong sense of love.
8) I learnt how to have confidence. I will only fear the Lord in my life and no one shall intimidate me as God is my only ruler. I learnt how to be open to a large crowd which was tramatising at fist but, thank God it all worked out.
9) I grew in knowing what I wanted. I had a purpose now and that is to serve the Lord. I also decide not to lead my life day by day as God would not wnat me to do so. I worked out my goals and did two medical articles each week from sources to reaise my dreams to become a doctor someday.
10) I stop my always wanting to be right attitiude and gave in to others, learnt to damit my faults and listen. I always used to assume stuff about others which made me irritating. I really cahnged to be more considerate to how others felt and I called all my enemies and apologised to them. Except two, they are now all my friends.
I really want to take God for changing my life in these ways and making me into a better person. This is a thanks to God as he guides me on to my new class and environment, alot for changing my life and making a significant turnig point for me!

Oh its' all about me-

2006-10-19T22:40:00.000-07:00

Hello all erm just so you all know, I got a Beneficiary for my project so I am like super happy...................but anyway just a brief summary of things that happen lately:
1) I got back my results....total percentage is kind of lousy, but never mind. Level position is 51. Hiaz.....................acording to just the EOYs results!
2) Oh, I decided to posts some of my baby pictures today because I went to Church that day and saw some baby pictures of the SNP members...hah so funny................

Before I was born, me in my mum's womb.... my real foetus X-ray lor so do not anyhow say I got it off the internet. Must really go thank my mum's doctor who allowed her to keep them for me to see some day...Haha!

I do not know why parents took me sleeping but anyway in this picture I am about 1 month old.

Hah me in happy mood....at one month!

Hiaz people do not take my picture... see I cry liao!

Oh I never realised I was ever fat!

Exam

2006-10-11T02:37:00.000-07:00

Ha...ha today was my second last paer...Chinese!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am going crazy right now but I'm sure anyone can understand. Tommorrow is Mathematics Paper 2...so after that got National Education Ambassador stuff to do; then I am a free man... at least do not need to go back to school on Friday. Hahiaz...... Thinking about it gets me so HYPER!

Exam

2006-10-09T20:24:00.000-07:00

Today's Science paper went smoothly and I am officialy left with the Chinese and Maths Paper 2! So can relax today.
1 paper down, 2 more to go!

Countdown

2006-10-09T03:05:00.000-07:00

1 paper down, three to go.

God's Power To Change

2006-10-06T01:42:00.000-07:00

This thing that happened was so cool... I was quite worried over something and I paryed to God for a solution. WOW! He gave me one which is so unbelievable... I never thought that he colud touch me so deeply spiritually until he actually was there for me today as he was always. Ever since I accepted him, I have come to reflect and realise that he has always been here for me; guiding me and showing me how to move on in life's dificulties. I feel strong in his presence......it is a feeling too great to be described. It is good to have God to carry me through my life...God is Good.....I know for sure now that I would always want him to be with me and I will pray that others will come to feel it too!

1 paper down 4 more to go!

Exams

2006-10-04T23:08:00.000-07:00

4 papers down,5 to go! Just awoke from my afternoon nap, still a little letargic. Somemore tonight need to study again. Life as a student....cannot slack one!
But anyway doing quiet time started to become a drag now, I am so vexed about palcing time out for QT, oh well God will make a way.Today's
Litrerature and Art paper was quite okay. I have a feeling tommmorrow's paper is going to be difficult.

Family

2006-10-03T03:41:00.000-07:00

Me and My sis

My parents

To all

2006-10-03T01:08:00.000-07:00

All de best for your exams guys--!
PS: NOTE TO SELF
THERE IS NO SUCH THNIG AS LUCK

Exam

2006-09-29T03:25:00.000-07:00

Two papers down, nine to go!

Abortion

2006-09-27T03:49:00.000-07:00

As much as sex is pleasurable to some, the consequences are very serious. Today in class Mrs Lam showed the class a really gross abortion video and how babies are being killed through abortion by using Saline solution ect.
I know that in life we often make the wrong choices due to temptation as we are all sinners in our walk of life. But there are always turning points in life so I advise all pregnant women to give birth to the precious life they are carrying in their bodies.
Today I saw that doctors use Saline solution to burn the skins of babies while they are still in the mothers using injections. They burn their skins clean off and because the babies are still able to breathe in their mother's womb, the chemical burn their organs alive too. Oh my goodness so cruel. Now, just take a minute and imagine you as the baby who has no choice in that situation to be burned alive like that! REGARDLESS the circumstances, if you are pregnant, you have a life in your hands and so just embrace it and live your days giving your love to the child and nurture its growth.
Before the video started to showcase the different methods of abortion, there were many pictures of cut babies so when it was starting to get to the part where they cut up babies and abort them through use of really horrible ways like equipment and chemicals, I was feeling so sick. I could not eat lunch after watching the video. How can they destroy innocent lives in their won selfishness. Do u know that babies abort do not even have a national identity? It is like they were here on one day and totally erase from government records when it is aborted! To the mother, it may be traumatizing for life, but to the child, it will be something that will never be able to be eased-THEIR CHANCE TO LIVE. As a human being, regardless how much the struggles to live are with a child and, there are always helplines. Please all pick up the phone and call is you are pregnant, and do not be so selfish to abort.
I STRONGLY feel that we should all think about life as the baby. When we get given birth, we grow and finally get given birth, people say that our life only just begin. And that when we connect more with our mother like how we come to connect more with God after we gain a new life from coming to faith. Birth like faith is a chance for new life. If you treasure your time with God, similarly your child will be with too. Cause like God, they will fall back on you and be jewels in your eye like you are to God. I asked Pastor Lee what will happen to aborted babies- will they go to heaven or hell. In Leviticus, we learn that a woman gives birth to a new sinner. So if a baby is a sinner although it was aborted and had no major contacts with the world, they cannot sin. Logically speaking anyway. Pastor Lee says by Gods grace, the baby may be saved. Even f God decides not to save it, he is not obligated to as women give birth to new sinners hence, the cleansing steps that the olden Irealites took to purify themselves after childbirth in Leviticus.
Human sin is so great that we can take a life through even LEGAL MEANS. Only God can judge us rightly and not even laws can compare. In conclusion, abortion is a wrong choice to make in life!

Thanks Guys

2006-09-22T18:00:00.000-07:00

Yesterday 22/9/06, in the early afternoon, Romans called and siad that he will be coming to my house to visit me although I was sick. Which was surprisingly very tounching.
Sometimes in life it is the people who will touch a person mosts. Like a friend who calls up to see you through your days of sickness or when a friend shares even the cheapest of stuff like a packet of sweet with you. In conclusion, it is the thought that counts. So, thanks guys.
At about 5pm+, Romans, Peng and Potter arrived. I gave them all packet drinks and Peng then proceeded to teach me Sets And Venn Diagrams paitently. Okay I know I can be like very irritating at times so thanks for bearing with me Peng=:).
Before I end off, I really want to thank God for curing my body of illnesses day by day and that you will continue to keep me in your Kingdom as I continute to build on the little faith that I have.

ARRH-!

2006-09-18T05:39:00.000-07:00

Today, I am feeling so sick. I went to school as usual, but I wasted 3 periods of Design and Technology lesson cause I forgotten to bring my materials for practical. Determined to not let time past, I went out of the classroom to the Gents’ beside the General Office to call home in a cubicle. Unfortunately, the no one picked up at home which was just very devastating. I felt so irritated as last night I was sick and had to sleep early, even to the extend of not eating my dinner as I was so tired and sick. I just kept sleeping ever since I came back from church at about 3.3.0pm-Ps: I did bathe before I slept if people like Firdaus would like to know.
Anyways, I packed my timetable last minute today because I worked up late and because last night I was too tired to pack. So I guess in my hurry-Hah; I forgotten my materials.
Anyways during Mathematics lesson, I fell sick again and everyone around including the teacher were retards. I kept grabing my face and body in discomfort but they either laugh or do not understand. This carried on to the Art lesson and determined to get attention, I got to my class chairman to ask her to tell Ms Candy, Ps: its her real name, that I was sick. After, three boys took me to the sick bay and ………………. All the regular stuff that happen s to and person when they are sick. My grandmother picks me up to go see the doctor at Tampinese Polyclinic and then I have to take medications but all is well.
By the way the Doctor said that I am suffering from a ear problem of imbalance which causes my dizziness, feeling to vomit, drowsiness and temporal lost of visions at times I stand or sit. Before I end, I just want to thank God for blessings me through this though day as it would have been extremely horrible if you were not with me today especially, when I had to wait for my grandmother to come or my consultation session with the doctor ect.

My Street E Reflection

2006-09-16T01:55:00.000-07:00

Here are my reflections for the street E on Sunday (9/9/06). First of all I feel that it is very meaningful to go round the streets spreading God's word because it allows us to touch people outside our social circle with the Gospel and God's word. Secondly, I feel that the people's responses are all very 'cold' and 'dead'. They never respond as ideally as I thought. Despite the rain and large crowd seeking at Citylink Interchange Shopping Hunt out, not many were spontaneous towards Minuru or me. When we approached, they would either walk away or say that they are a rush. I feel that this should not be but honestly, this is something I cannot control or change and I will probably do the same at times. However, when we d0o get hold of willing people, they often seemed a little jolted by the ' What Is the Coolest Thing You Want to Ask God' section. Some chose to ignore the section and some just wrote the answers any old how. A Christian which Minuru and I targeted was one that thought that being Christians we are sinless. I do not believe what I heard from him. Peng Siang says that even if the person we approached is a Christian, we can still probe him some questions. I totally agree. Thus, Minuru and I explained to him that being Christian and going to Church does not make us sinless as men are of a sinful nature. What the Sunday Sermon on the same day taught me that people would just focus on the present and let God's open opportunities slide pass. We are all so engrossed in our own life and suffering to know God as who He is- someone who is magnificent. The amount of people who back off form the section about God fully states that they have zero interest in the Lord but them selves just like those that say we are in a rush. On pair of boys which Minuru and I approached were talking and walking. We told them to help us complete a youth survey and one of them obliged. The other said a firm stand of NO! He later went to a pillar two pillars away to play or sms with his handphone to wait for his friend. This made worst when his friend who was filling up the survey form said can I cross out the section about God? I was like totally IRRITATED although this was my second street E exercise. The last time I did it, I dropped my ipodnano on the streets of Marine Parade which is just depressing. I learnt from my mistake and this time round kept my new ipod in my sling bag. If people who are complete IDIOTS like me could do so then why is the response of the people on the Streets of Tampines the same as Marine Parade? The world should just stop dwelling in self pity because it is just pathetic and dumb. We all need to slow down and feel Jesus in our life. As mention in 2Cor 12:9''My grace is sufficient for you, for my strength is made perfect in weakness.'' By God's grace, he will not give us more than we can bear and we should thrust that our designer knows best. THE WORLD SHOULD NOT RUSH ON WITH THEIR LIVES AND NEGLECT THE LORD CAUSE THEIR LIVES CAN BE MADE SO MUCH MORE COLURFUL. Spreading gospel on the streets has taught me and brought a little prospective and insight into my life. As Christians we have God's word to spread is a privilege. Like the speech by a pastor of Presbyterian Church on Saturday to all participants of the Boy's Brigade Bible Quiz 2006 is that through so many versions of the bible, we have lost the culture of memorizing common verse unlike the past Christians who all use the NEW KING'S JAMES VERSION. Thus, they were all remembering the same verses and talking about some became a common language. Though we have lost this virtue, spreading the Gospel free hand is still quite fun. In all, the challenges faced only got me closer to GOD and closed up the gap between Him and me. I will continue to be patient towards people who are blinded by the world's evil and Satan. I will brush up on my bible knowledge and in time to come, I hope that with Love- I can go on the streets spreading my only passion in a convincing and heart-warming manner. I will brush up on my Gospel sharing skills and I really thank Peng Siang for bringing me to Church and for teaching me to spread the Good news. I hope that street E will be held again for me to try to spread my love and passion and I hope that somehow through other Church activities, the heart OF MANY WILL BE DIRECTECTED TO GOD FOR HE IS M-A-G-N-I-F-I-C-E-N-T!